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Post by Milo on Jan 23, 2023 0:34:24 GMT 1
Day 40, dawn (a week after the blizzard, open to anyone) Out of longstanding tradition he'd woken up before the sun. While he tried to sleep in to have more of an overlap in waking times with Choice, it wasn't that easy to shake habits. And sleeping in still seemed like he was slacking off and useless, even if no one had said anything about it. But there had been safety in the rigid structures of the monarchy and he missed it a bit.
So he'd headed out of the cave, quietly, to engage in at least one of the old structures – singing. With that being in human tongue and not everyone having reacted well to that, Milo sat sown on a stone a bit away from the cave, hopefully enough so to not bother anyone. Having spend plenty of time in the choir meant he knew how to sing well, even when there was no music to accompany it. The repetitive chant of 'Sanctus et Benedictus' was comfortable too.
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Post by Mahrak on Feb 5, 2023 21:34:35 GMT 1
Mahrak left the caves on light feet, both to not disturb those fast asleep and to not startle the singer outside in the dawning sunlight. He'd taken a fun tumble with Keleero right as the night had come to an end, but as he'd come to expect, the silly bird-elf went from hot to cold at the drop of a feather. It had seemed wise to retain the high spirits the fur-sharing had left Mahrak in by leaving the solitary chamber Keleero had made for himself and go out into the new day. The lovely singing was an added bonus.
**Don't stop on my account,** he made sure to send to Milo as he left the caves, closely followed by Longsleep. **You have a lovely voice.**
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Post by Milo on Feb 5, 2023 23:46:50 GMT 1
Milo startled anyway, still not used being spoken to. At least not in sending, usually he'd been the one to reach out, unless some youngling wanted to hear stories from the humans. Broke his singing too of course. Maybe the older monks had been right when they used bracelets of beads to keep the rhythm. He only used them to fidget, in long hours of forced silence.
“It was the only task they could use me for” was his quiet reply, looking down at his feet. “Somewhere I wasn't seen.” In an alcove at the back of the church, in the hooded wide robes, it had been safe. No one could notice that he didn't fit in or pick him out from the others to inquire about him later. And he could sing well, hadn't been as clumsy as with all the other daily tasks.
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Post by Mahrak on Feb 7, 2023 21:27:01 GMT 1
Mahrak raised an eyebrow at Milo's words. "They didn't want to see you?"
Humans were still an alien concept to Mahrak. The winter weather hadn't allowed him to see the local ones up close in any way - he'd in fact been loudly discouraged from doing so by certain tribe members - so he hadn't quite grasped what Milo's life before this place had been like. Then again, he couldn't quite wrap his head around the spares descriptions Keleero had shared of his old holt either. But that was the fun challenge of learning about new elves!
"Are humans like that? They don't want to look at each other, but they like singing? And singing is useful to them?" He plopped himself down next to Milo (asking for permission to join someone's company before doing so rarely occurred to Mahrak). Longsleep followed suit, settling down for Mahrak to lean on. "Humans sound so fascinating!"
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Post by Milo on Feb 7, 2023 22:34:06 GMT 1
“No one wanted me around.” he muttered. Not seen was as close as they could get, when some more influential people insisted on him being taken in. Mahrak probably meant no harm with his questions, but it still was hard, when he'd rather ignore it existed. Possible the elf part right along it too, though he could hardly be here with no history at all.
“No. They didn't want to look at me.” Just him specifically. “Singing was... a task that had to be done. One that I wasn't too clumsy to do and that could be done without anyone having to look at me.” Fascinating was not the term he would use. His life hadn't been nice. The tiger made him a little bit nervous. Of course all the animals in the holt were harmless, tame in as much as elves knew the word, but this was a being he only knew from stories. Most of them including hunters being mauled to death.
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Post by Mahrak on Feb 20, 2023 20:38:56 GMT 1
"Didn't want to look at you?" Mahrak echoed Milo, his confusion very audible. "That's strange. Are humans very shy in general? Or they didn't want to look at you in particular?"
He hadn't seen any humans since he'd come to the holt. This was partly because he'd been told to keep out of their sight, of course, but he'd seen no trace of them either. They seemed to keep down to the big water away from the mountain.
"And they need singing done every day? For some reason? Are they like birds?"
Realizing that his mouth had run away from him, again, Mahrak gave a self-deprecating little laugh and jumped to another subject, leaving it up to Milo what he wanted to answer and not.
Noting some nerves in the air, Mahrak put a hand on Longsleep's head and ruffled his fur. Longsleep gave a pleased huff at the contact.
"Do you want to pet him? He's big on pets. A big kitten, really, and lazy to boot. It's amazing he finds the energy to hunt enough to keep fed."
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Post by Milo on Feb 20, 2023 23:36:28 GMT 1
“Just me. Because I didn't belong to them.” Not in the human world and not fully into elfin one either. Being equal parts both seemed to never be enough. Of course the elves were nicer about it, but it still scared him that anyone who looked closer could point out the differences. And what little he had learned in his young life seemed less suited to be helpful here, to get accepted for skill instead of heritage.
“Not all. Just in the... holt I was assigned to.” Explaining what a cloister was would be a bit much here, this was the closest concept he could think off. “Someone ages ago decided that praise by singing was needed at every other hour, just as much as cleaning.” It had not been a choice, but turned out the best part of his life there. Milo didn't mind answering questions that much. Easier than trying to put all the differences into one tale.
At the offer he hesitated. “He is your... bond?” Not all of the animals around were, better to ask. Though he couldn't imagine how it would be to be connected to another being like that. Didn't felt like that was part of his unknown heritage. “I've only ever seen the likes of him in books.”
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Post by Mahrak on Feb 28, 2023 21:05:46 GMT 1
Mahrak had enough tact and social graces to not outright ask Milo 'If you didn't belong, why where you there?' There were many reasons a person could end up somewhere they didn't belong, he assumed, especially when they lived in a place with more than one holt available to them. To think there were so many elves and other creatures out in the wide world, just waiting to be discovered by others! It made Mahrak ridiculously giddy.
"So singing is like cleaning for humans? What were you supposed to sing praise to?" The concept confused Mahrak a fair amount. Singing the praises of someone's great accomplishments he could understand, or even singing about how beautiful a sunrise or an aurora was, but daily praises as an idea was a vague and strange one to him.
"Correct! Little Longsleep here is my bond-friend - has been since he was a kitten." Mahrak gave the tiger a good scratch behind the ears, which said tiger happily leaned into. "He's very used to elves so don't you worry about his teeth or claws. He's a big fuzzy old baby."
Longsleep did nothing to protest this description, merely yawning and buffing his head against Mahrak's hands in search for more skritches.
"Did you ever have a bond? With one of the humans, I mean." It seemed only logical to Mahrak that Milo should have been able to, seeing as he shared blood with humans. Then again, humans seemed more elf in manner than like creatures such as tigers and wolves. Tigers didn't build dens or wear clothes or sing. "And what are 'books'?"
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Post by Milo on Mar 4, 2023 16:28:03 GMT 1
“Not for all. Just those. Like there are different ways of living between tribes.” Humans could be just as vastly different as elves. As for the purpose, he hadn't been all that interested in it, what with having no option to leave, so he shrugged. “Some higher power, I think. Their tale of 'high ones'” Neither had cared about him in all his life, so he saw little point in caring about them.
Longsleep looked harmless enough, so Milo reached out to carefully pet him. He preferred animals over people half the time anyway – they judged less. Didn't look at him oddly. “Ah, no. It... it isn't like that.” If it was possible at all, he never felt a connection. Or not one he recognized to pursue. “Do you... know who was the first of your tribe to share blood with a tiger?” Someone had to have been the first. And maybe they'd been different too, so he would have an angle to explain his humanness.
“Books are stories, but hold down, not told by mouth. Like the pictures Keleero shapes in the walls for decoration, but with more sense to them. And on... leaves, rather than rocks.” He'd seen Flint too paint, put markings on rocks or trees, but those seemed to have less of a purpose, no patterns, got washed away by the elements easily. Confused him, though he hadn't dared to ask for the why.
(OOC: The religion Milo grew up under is vaguely based on generic christianity, but mostly for the sake of coherent references. He didn't care enough about it to go into details)
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Post by Mahrak on Mar 26, 2023 22:09:09 GMT 1
"Huh, odd. Then again, I suppose your humans would find our habits equally strange." Mahrak basked in that knowledge for a heartbeat, taking kit-like pleasure in imagining the (to him) strange lives the humans must lead and how they would fair among elves. The urge to seek out the local humans burned ever bright in him. "The humans had High Ones too? They also come from the stars?" Not having even the basic concept of 'gods' to build on, that's where Mahrak's thoughts ended up.
Longsleep happily accepted the pets from Milo, heaving a pleased sigh and settling in for a bit of his namesake. If he'd been a smaller cat, he would have purred.
Mahrak frowned at Milo's 'no' to the question about bonding, but it was a thoughtful frown, not an angry one. "Interesting. Oh, and who shared blood with tigers first? Hmmm. Well, as far as I know, the tales tell that the High Ones Uthorim, Iefyr and Zestari held on to most of the star magic when they awoke in the Far White, more than their fellow travelers. They were the ones to change into animal forms that could survive the harsh cold. They tried different ones, but always returned to the tigers, helping feed their fellow survivors and eventually birthing half-tigers. But that was too long ago to even measure in fathers' mothers and mothers' fathers."
Mahrak's people didn't have a true measure of time passing, but generations was as close to it as they came, and the High Ones hadn't been seen since long before Mahrak's greatest of grand uncles had drawn his first breath. Trying to imagine time that far back in any concrete way almost gave him a headache.
The explanation of what books were made more sense than getting stuck trying to imagine 'time'. Mahrak's whole face lit up at the idea of writing down stories on leaves. "How clever! But it must take a lot of work, making pictures small enough to fit on leaves. And leaves are so fragile! How often do you need to make new leaf-stories? My people had enough of a chore keeping our paints and stories up on the cave walls and stone keeps far better than leaves." Another thought struck him. "Keleero did mention something like stone-stories back at his own Holt. Said they had a whole weave of all things that had happened to his people since the High Ones' Palace fell from the sky - can you imagine?!" It seemed a mad, impossible thing to Mahrak, but he loved mad and impossible things. "He said something about maybe starting the tale of this holt, on the walls in the bathing cave. Seems like a fun idea!"
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Post by Milo on Mar 30, 2023 20:11:55 GMT 1
“Something like them, at least. Didn't listen much to the stories.” Of course it was his ancestry too, but by that point he'd already seen how humans treated him. An outsider. Unwelcome. Why should he think this God of theirs to be any different? There were many more interesting stories around, about strange lands, people that were different in yet other ways. Somewhere far enough away he might even be welcome there – for all it was a dream to ever leave.
Shape-changing was somewhat different to how he had come into being, but it would have to do as comparison. Especially since he didn't particular like to talk about what happened at his birth. For the moment Milo nodded, still trying to figure out how to best phrase it. With how Keleero had reacted he was rather cautious on offering any bit of information that others hadn't already figured out.
“Often. There is always something worth keeping. And stone keeps better, but it takes longer to carve and you can't carry it with you, to show others.” A shame he didn't knew enough on how to make paper. But then, what use would it be here? He was fairly sure elves didn't have writing. “It's good to have some tale of what happened, for others that may come. Too easy to get lost, with people vanishing.” Would make it easier to explain too, if everyone could go and look at it whenever needed. “Maybe he should ask Flint for help. I've seen him paint on things.” As much as he would like to help himself, that offer would probably not be received well. Not by the glider.
“So, if you say these first to be tiger-blooded were half-tigers... were they not seen as elves?” Because that was the whole problem, wasn't it? If you were equal parts both, where did you belong? “Since I'm as much human as they were tigers” he added quietly, not daring to look at Mahrak.
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Post by Mahrak on Apr 1, 2023 17:45:15 GMT 1
The idea of humans, so alike both elves and what people had told him trolls looked like, having also come from the sky made perfect sense to Mahrak. For all he knew, there had been others along in the Palace, not just the trolls and preserves. Well, he might get his chance to ask the humans themselves one day. "I'm guessing humans don't have stoneshapers? Not that we had many of those either. Most of my kin use paint or carved the slower way." Too slow for his own lack of patience. He was happy to enjoy the results artists accomplished on the cave walls of his home, but since it was an activity you could only get up to while inside, he'd had too much wanderlust to pick it up himself. A flute you could play while you walked; a cave wall needed you to stay next to it for a long time for there to be a story on it eventually. "Agreed! Songs are also good for keeping things in memory, but adding in markings makes the tales twice safe from forgetfulness." With Milo mention of Keleero possibly asking Flint for help, Mahrak couldn't help but chuckle. "I'm not sure birdbones is open to anyone helping, arrogant flutter-about as he is. He might grow some sense eventually, but I think that day is far in the future." Milo's next question genuinely surprised Mahrak to the point where it took him a few heartbeats to even formulate an answer. "Not elves? Of course they were elves! They were the first elves!" He searched for more words, for a way to explain what he'd always thought of as self-evident. "The High Ones were beings of fire and change. They couldn't survive in the Far White. They needed the blood of tigers to learn to live there and that is how we became elves. Just as sharing High One blood made our tigers more than they once were. If shapechanging hadn't been lost with the High Ones," at least where he came from, "we would still be seeking to renew that bond. "I honestly don't know how elves like Keleero, Eryk and Flint managed to become elves without their firstcomers joining with their worlds in any way. Reefshadow I can sort of understand, his High Ones clearly made a lot of changes so they could live in water, but I still can't fully wrap my mind around the how of it." Which delighted him! He couldn't wait to find out how that had become possible. "So you're half-human?" Mahrak had meant to ask earlier, but Milo had seemed so shy he didn't want to scare him off. "Does that mean one of your parents was a High One?"
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Post by Milo on Apr 1, 2023 18:51:42 GMT 1
No magic among humans, no, he confirmed with a shake of his head. Probably for the better. Who knows what results that might've brought down in him. And while Milo had little option for restlessness, stories were a comfort. At least when no one screamed at him for supposedly having copied some part of it wrong. “He'll certainly not want help from me.” For a whole bunch more reasons. The tension between them should be obvious to anyone watching.
Well, no one had bothered to explain all the differences between elves and High Ones. If all some talked about were how they got influenced by blood, how could he believe it wasn't important? “But they still only did it once. You're more elf than tiger.” Which was the whole conundrum he was caught in, wasn't it?
Another slight nod at the question. Half human. Half elf. So far either world had yet to fully accept him. “I don't know. Never got to met either.” All he knew were some tales from his mother, the tragic of her dying to bear him. Not a good trade-off, if you'd ask his grandfather. “Don't know my tribe either.” Word that he'd been raised by humans should've gone around already – people always talked, no matter if human or elf. “My name explains it better, but no one here likes to use it.”
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Post by Mahrak on Apr 1, 2023 21:06:41 GMT 1
Mahrak gave a snort at Milo's observation on Keleero not wanting his help in particular. "Don't mind old birdbones, he doesn't seem to like anyone much. I think he's too scared to." And then Milo went there again, saying things that went so against everything Mahrak had grown up understanding as 'just things you know'. It was fantastic! "They didn't do it only once," Mahrak clarified. "It was just very, very difficult. The Far White froze their magic, making it a mere spark of the fire it once was. When they were among the stars, the High Ones could be any form or shape they wished to. But once they fell from the skies, they were weakened. Eventually, all three of the High Ones who could be tigers were tigers, completely, and so were all the children they birthed thereafter. I am indeed more elf than tiger, just as Longsleep here," he gave the tiger an affectionate pat, "is more tiger than elf, but we both have the distant blood of the High Ones in us. Trust me when I say, if one of mine could reclaim such ancient magic as changing one's form, we'd seek to renew blood ties in a heartbeat!" He had to stem the tide of his excitement a bit more at Milo's confirmation that he might have been the child of a High One. Mahrak did manage this, since the news that Milo hadn't known his parents or tribe at all tempered his excitement with sympathy. "I'm sorry to hear that." Being raised by those who birthed you wasn't a must for happiness, Mahrak knew that well enough from other elves in the Far White who'd happily grown up with other adults, but not having know even your tribe... "So you grew up with only humans? No elves until you came here? And how does your name explain it?" Was it a human name?
OOC: Keeping Mahrak's knowledge of Milo's name intentionally vague here, so you can decide exactly how soul names work for elves from Milo's world I know how they work for Mahrak's people, but seeing as our elves are from different universes, soul names might act differently between them! I mean, canon has most elves without soul names, so I think it makes sense there could be differences in how they work exactly between worlds and elf groups. I think we might have discussed this at some earlier point, when Milo first appeared, but I started up a thread over here, to make sure everyone gets a chance to update the group on how soul names work for their elves in particular.
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Post by Milo on Apr 1, 2023 22:35:06 GMT 1
Mahrak lost him a bit there. It just was hard to grasp how someone could be a tiger, have children with a tiger and yet that children still be elves. “I don't... I don't think that's how it was for me.” There was no being sure of course, but there were no current tales of shapeshifting elves he ever heard off. And surely they would've used this as a argument to drive them even deeper into the forests. “I'm too... broken to be some planned result.” Bad eyes, uneven limbs, pain from weather shifts and all that sure couldn't be something an elf needed to fit better into the world. The opposite, more. “Can't change my shape either.” And heavens know he tried as a child, to fit better in. “Just glide, a little bit.” Which Keleero sure wouldn't help with learning either. The redhead might believe the elder only needed time, but he hadn't been around and be called a what instead of a who.
“Some elves, later. But we only talked, didn't get to live with them. And they were different. Deer-blooded.” Though now that he thought about it, he knew that at the first introduction already, needing no explanation. It just didn't fit. “It just does. It fits, it's all I am. And I don't have another. Milo is just... the sound, turned around. But it doesn't work that well in talking anyway.” Choice and Keleero had made quite a fuss about it and despite all attempts of explanation, he did not understand. It was his name.
OOC: We did talk a bit already when he first arrived, but see your thread for a summary!
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